Over the past couple days, I have been contemplating on wanting more STUFF. I spent 3 hours on har.com looking at what kind of houses were for sale in my area. When I came to my senses and realized that buying a new house was outside of our budget, I started looking around, trying to figure out what I could do to our house. For some reason, I needed more things, and new stuff, right then.
We watched that movie called ‘The Joneses’ last night. I won’t give it away, but you understand the title… you gotta keep up with them. They have all the stuff that is new, and everyone else wants to have. The movie had a bit of everything in it: sex, drugs, rock ‘n’ roll, death, deception, nudity, adultery, love.. and even a nice little snippet about it being ok to be gay. Despite most of those things, I do recommend it, for one very good reason… it’s not really about the stuff.
During the film, I found myself more and more thankful for what God has given me. I thought about the past couple days, and how I wanted the next best thing, but realized that I already have the best. I have my husband. I have my son. We are not in need of food, or clothing, or a roof over our heads. And best of all, we have Christ. Without Him, none of this would be possible.
Unfortunately, I also found myself judging the characters in the movie, likening them to actual people that exist in our country, and even in our town. I’ve never spent a day in a mansion in Beverly Hills..and I don’t know any millionaires (i don’t think). While watching the movie, I was thinking to myself: ‘how sad that people actually live this way.. godless.. oblivious to the world.. all they care about is their stuff’. One of the characters in the movie even said, “Whoever dies with the most toy’s wins!” It’s pretty ridiculous for me to place judgment on people I don’t even know. Who am I? I am a sinner, just like everyone else.
Last Sunday we had a guest speaker do the sermon at church. He was talking about God’s grace, and mercy towards us, and gave a really great example of how God views us in relation to attaining righteousness. Imagine me and Shaquille O’Neal standing at the base of the Empire State building. He’s a good 2 feet taller than me. Who do you suppose would have the greater chance of jumping up and touching the top of the building? The answer is neither. Now imagine what we look like standing next to each other from the top of the building… specks. It is the same with those who have, and those who have not. God sees us all the same… none of us can jump up and touch His righteousness.. no matter how hard we try. None of us will attain that perfect image of a righteous being, because we are by nature sinful.
You know the saying ‘Don’t judge a book by it’s cover’. Well, I say, ‘Don’t judge a book’ period. I openly admit to you the reader, that I am judgmental. I do not want to pretend to be better than anyone. I have broken every commandment. I should pay the consequences. Last night while laying in bed, I realized that I had been judging the people on the movie, real or not. I realized that I had been coveting my neighbors belongings over the past couple days. I had sinned.. and not even thought twice about it… I wanted to. I even lay awake most nights thinking about how great my friends have it.. wishing to be more like them.
I started thinking about the times in my past where i knowingly took the sinful route, and I asked God to make me feel the sorrow for my actions. Yes, because I have accepted Christ as my savior all my past has been erased… Jesus took that burden from me… but I don’t think it’s fair for me to walk around pretending to be blameless.. I’m not. I finally succumbed last night to a burden from my past that I have never felt remorse over. I let His Spirit wash over me, to make me feel, for the first time, that I had been wrong.
This journey is ever changing for me. Some days I feel uplifted, enjoying all that God has blessed me with, and sometimes I want to wallow in self pity for not being who I should be in His eyes. The truth is, I will never attain perfection… but I can live the life that He has set before me. I can be a friend, a teacher, a mother, and a wife, and do it in His name. There is a really great song out right now that says, “Do every little thing to the glory of the One who made you.” Whether you are driving in your car, reading the Bible, or talking to a friend, show the world that you are doing it for God.