A woman in my bible study group shared that her mother-in-law has Alzheimer’s. She was a very devout Christian, who shared Christ eagerly, and served others. She is in the 6th stage of the disease, and cannot remember anything about who she is, or was.
Imagine for a moment that the person you love most in your life has suddenly become a blur in your mind. You can sense that there was something, but you are not sure what it was. This person was your life force. You cried to them, and they let your tears fall on their shoulders. You whispered your secrets to them, and they held you closer, comforting you, though you had done wrong. The promise of always being together was what kept you from falling apart.
Now imagine that they are gone. Not only are they gone, but you don’t remember ever being with them. All you know is that a part of you is missing, and it makes you so upset and angry. You don’t want comfort from anyone because it is not filling that void in your heart. The story of this woman shook me deeply. I started tearing up when the story was told.
Now that this love has found me, I won’t let it go. I want to scream to everyone I meet that I have found my true love! His name is Jesus.
It works two ways. Before I knew Him, I was there.. in that place. I knew something was missing, and I kept trying to find that piece to the puzzle of my heart. When I wasn’t searching, and I had lost hope of ever being fulfilled, He found me. He came to me in the hour I felt lowest. It wasn’t apparent to the outside world, but inwardly I needed more. I wanted more.
How grateful I am to know that He is with me. He wakes with me, He stands by my side all day long. He whispers in my ear to tell me little secrets of joy. If only I could hear them all! In everything I find Him, and in everything I hope that He is there.
Jesus, you are my everything. I would be nothing without you. I will stand for you until the end. I will die for you.
4 Show me your ways, LORD,
teach me your paths.
5 Guide me in your truth and teach me,
for you are God my Savior,
and my hope is in you all day long.
6 Remember, LORD, your great mercy and love,
for they are from of old.
7 Do not remember the sins of my youth
and my rebellious ways;
according to your love remember me,
for you, LORD, are good.