Christian / heart talk / The Mapps Quest

Well hello 2012..

I am always amazed at how quickly a year can pass.  2011 was no exception, and I can honestly say that it has been the best year of my life.  So many amazing and wonderful things have happened in and around me.  My family is becoming a Christ centered family, and as a result, we have grown closer, and the stress of life is slowly fading.

This year marks the beginning of several new adventures: leaving my job to be a full time photographer, joining BSF, and learning to listen and follow where God is leading me… without question.

I had my last wedding photog gig of the year on Friday night.  In the days leading up to it, I was filled with anxiety, worrying about lighting and just general nerves about performing for this awesome couple.  I had prayed for His peace to fill me because I know that through God, all things are possible.

You see, this wedding has been on my mind since the day I knew I would be shooting it (since August).  It was held at the Heights theater in Houston.  The theater is just that.. a theater, with dim lighting.  I was scared to death that I wouldn’t have the money to buy the equipment to get the job done the right way, or that I would have to use my on board flash the entire time, and all the photos would be horrible.

As I have said before, and will say many MANY times in the future, God knows what He is doing.  In mid November, I suddenly booked 2 other December weddings.  In one day the money that I needed for the right lighting equipment was in my bank account.  At that same time, I got a small design job that covered our bills, and Christmas presents, too.  Not more that we needed, just right.  Have faith.  Have faith.  Have faith.

Faith is an amazing thing.  I have now entered into a new stage in my relationship with God…

“Therefore let us move beyond the elementary teachings about Christ and be taken forward to maturity, not laying again the foundation of repentance from acts that lead to death, and of faith in God, 2 instruction about cleansing rites, the laying on of hands, the resurrection of the dead, and eternal judgment. 3 And God permitting, we will do so.”  -Hebrews 6

And again I will say how amazing it is that He teaches us these things in His time.  I just read through Hebrews with my BSF group as all of this was going on around me.  Once you dive deep into knowing who God is, and what His plans are, He will bring it to life all around you… in EVERYTHING you do.

There is a certain comfort that comes with knowing that He is always there, and always looking out for us.  It’s all about relying on Him the same way that you rely on your spouse.  I know that Seth will be home at a certain time.  I know that God will be there if I call to Him.  My equipment arrived just in time for the 2nd wedding in December, and I even got to practice with it before hand!

So Friday morning I was all nerves.  As I packed up my stuff I prayed for His peace again.  As I got in my car I prayed for His peace again.  As I was driving, I was asking.. ‘please Lord, put your peace over me’.  Then the songs changed, and every one on the 45 minute drive to the theater was about God’s peace.  As I sang, I was filled with joy… knowing that God had gone before me, and made my path straight.  I smiled and praised God for His work in my life, and as I got teary eyed, I felt Him there with me.  By the time I got to the theater, I was ready.

By the way, the photos are gorgeous.  Not by my hands, but by His.

Here I am, humbled by your majesty, 
Covered by your grace so free.
Here I am, knowing I’m a sinful man, 
Covered by the blood of the lamb.

Now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine, 
Since You laid down Your life, 
The greatest sacrifice.

Majesty
Majesty
Your grace has found me just as I am
Empty handed but alive in Your hands
We sing 
Majesty
Majesty
Forever I am changed by Your love
In the beauty of Your Majesty

Here I am humbled by the love that You give, 
Forgiven so that I can forgive.
So here I stand, 
Knowing that I am Your desire, 
Sanctified by glory and fire.
And now I’ve found the greatest love of all is mine, 
Since You laid down Your life, 
The greatest sacrife.

Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am, 
Empty handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love, 
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

Majesty, Majesty.
Your grace has found me just as I am, 
Empty handed but alive in your hands.
Singing Majesty, Majesty.
Forever I am changed by Your love, 
In the presence of Your Majesty.
Majesty.

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